I don't like myself, how can I love myself?
Have you ever been to a Build-A-Bear Workshop? It is like a do-it-yourself assembly line for making your own stuffed animal.
Early in the assembly line of options for your custom bear, you see a basket of plastic red, heart shaped objects. The instructions say to kiss, bless, or place a wish upon this heart and then place it within the inner stuffing of the bear.
After doing that, you watch as your creation is sewn together and the stuffed animal is yours to take home.
This is how I picture God creating you. God placed a soul into you similar to how the heart gets into the toy bear.
I can imagine God holding your soul, as a beautiful ball of light. Whispering love into it, explaining the truth of who you are, and then gently laying your soul into a womb.
You have that beautiful ball of light in you right now. God kissed, God blessed. A perfect soul, untouched by your human exterior, untouched by the decisions you have made, untouched by the pain you have endured. Your soul is whole and complete and pure. Your soul is who you are.
This is the part of you to focus on loving. Not your exterior, your interior. If you find love for your soul, the rest will come later.